Journey of Healing and Learning

Heya Loves, welcome to my blog page.

For those of you who don’t know me, my name is Angie Haworth and I’m the owner of Discerning You, LLC.

In researching ‘what makes a good blog’, I found the following question, so that’s where I’m going to start:

“What do I have specifically to contribute to the world?”

My journey; because it’s uniquely mine.

So why, you might ask, would anyone want to read about that? Well. Maybe they won’t. And certainly not everyone will want to read it. But I believe there are people out there who will not only read it but who will enjoy it!

I mean, you’ve made it this far, right? 😊

So for the TLDR’ers out there, here’s the biggest take-away: I’m not perfect – far from it! – but I still have something to offer this world and I believe you do too. Even if you don’t know it yet.

You see, I’ve struggled in this thing called Life. Certainly not as much as some. And definitely more than others. I’ve had times in my life when I just couldn’t understand the point of it all. I was surrounded by people who loved me and I felt completely alone. I made some very risky decisions. I nearly declared bankruptcy after my divorce – I got divorced! I moved halfway across the country (and lived there for 6 years) until I became so desperately homesick – for those loved ones who surrounded me early on – that I abandoned my home and husband and moved back home. Yep. The same husband whom I later divorced. Who moved halfway across the country for me and then I left him.

Not perfect.

I’ve always struggled with tummy issues. I remember missing so many days in school they sent a letter to my parents. For the most part, I just lived with and learned not to eat certain foods. Over the years I’ve been diagnosed with Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS), lactose intolerance, gastroparesis, Candida overgrowth, and Small Intestine Bacteria Overgrowth (SIBO). For many years the symptoms were annoying at worst. Until 2016. During that year I began having flu-like symptoms – crashing fatigue, nausea, dizziness, brain fog, malaise, headaches – that shut me down for 5-7 days at a time. These episodes started in January and by June I’d missed 5 weeks of work. Over the next 6 years I worked with my physician to run test after test after test. The bloodwork is mostly in normal ranges. The most likely culprits were ruled out. But a couple of tests I was off the charts: Candida and SIBO. Of course it’d be my gut!

I worked with a naturopath; a dietician; a nutritionist and my general practitioner. I tried different protocols. Something would work for a few weeks and then I’d crash again. SO many supplements. Sleep specialists. Psychotherapists.

Not perfect.

Meanwhile, I’d lost that job. And to date, 2 more after that. (Though to be completely forthcoming I stopped trying to keep a “day job” in 2019 because I couldn’t maintain a consistent attendance and I hate letting people down. Instead, I picked up Uber Driving as I was able. Tried my hand as a professional genealogist – until even that was too much stress.)

And here’s the kicker: Now I consider myself a healer???

Say What?? How can you possibly hang out a shingle and work as a healer* when you can’t even heal yourself?!?

Well Friends, that’s what I’m doing.

You see, I have this natural ability, an innate gift for holding sacred space. And then I was blessed with a wonderful mentor & teacher who introduced me to shamanic practices; who trained me in the art of Reiki; who opened my eyes to my own intuitive gifts that – let’s be honest – I’m still discovering and I’m still questioning.

I am very much still a student. There are definitely things I don’t know. And most likely things I think I know, but still don’t quite have it.

What I do know, know in my soul, is that I am on this Journey of Healing and Learning. And I have a lot to offer. I may not be perfect. I may still have flare-ups – even flare-ups that last 3 weeks! And when I come out of them, I will continue learning. I will continue my shamanic practices. I will share my gifts with others. I will share my knowledge with others. I will see the good in others and be like a mirror to reflect that goodness back to them.

The first step to that is being honest – with myself & with you, Dear Friend!

So, there you have it. Full honesty.

I’m not perfect. And I still have a lot to offer.

And so do you. Will you come along on this journey with me?